So I get that I haven’t blogged in a week, but no fears: I have not dropped off. Life is picking up super hard though. When I first started this post, I started with it’s been a lucky couple of weeks – which continues to be true. I’m getting so many freelance offers that I’m having to turn down work.
I AM HAVING TO TURN DOWN WORK.
Let’s just focus on that crazy ass thought for a second. I went from having no freelance project to the option of multiple freelance projects in about a second flat. I’ve accepted two projects: one is a lower-paying article writing job. I like it because the topic areas are directly in my wheel-house, so it’s not a lot of effort for me, and builds my reputation on Upwork, in case I need to rely on Upwork for more freelance jobs in the future.
The other job is helping a former co-worker with her new company’s website. My primary focus currently is writing Web copy, including all product and services pages. It’s a high-profile project, which is exactly the kind of work that I’m looking for to build my portfolio. I also really love working with her, so I’m enjoying that aspect of things as well.
In other news, it’s been a weirdly emotional time for me recently. I’m not really sure what’s at the root of it. While gratitude and money are my focus words, lately my mood has been more: restless. Gratitude is the root of all happiness, and I think part of gratitude is taking the time to stand still long enough to give thanks, and that’s what I’m struggling with. It seems like every time I take a second to be still, I’m thinking about the things that I am not happy about, or something else that I want, or something that I could/should/want to be doing, but for whatever reason (like RESTING), I am not.
Rest is hard for me. Yesterday, OfficeRoomie and I were talking about the concept of rest. This weekend she’s going on a retreat to talk about the concept of rest – beyond sleep, but the concepts of emotional rest, physical rest, spiritual rest, etc. They’re talking about it from a biblical perspective, and while that’s not necessarily the angle that’s interesting to me, since I’m not religious, it’s fascinating to me that rest seems to have been a topic that folks have struggled with and talked about for a long ass time.
Clearly, I’m going to need find a way to both stand still and find peace while I’m standing still. I’m not sure how I’m going to satisfy the yearning my heart feels, especially since I can’t really do anything about any of the things I want beyond what I’m doing already. My usual method of coping is to suppress all the feelz, but I’m beginning to think that’s probably not the world’s healthiest coping mechanism. My other coping mechanism is generally to exercise, which occupies both the mind and body and generates happy endorphins. I’d like to go walk outside, but it’s like 7 degrees today, so no such luck. Next week should be in the 60s though, which makes walking a viable option.
I read a post on Dream Beyond Debt the other day about moving past a rut. The idea is that you should move past a rut in any area of your life by creating energy or momentum in another area. Her example is doing some sort of work with your hands (creative energy) to move past ruts in other areas. I guess writing is kind of helping me do that, and adding some physical energy will definitely generate momentum.